This is it. A Hermit’s Paradise. Alone. Secluded. Quiet. I hear the birds, waves, a quiet air. Stillness. The

sun shines as I write.

What have we learned?

It takes the third day to disconnect. I no longer have the need to hear any noise. No music to accompany

me. No cameras to record me. In this moment of stillness, I can be me. Listen to me. Be with me.

Life. Life has taught us so much, brought us so much. What we thought was necessary, is necessary no

more. No longer bound to the shackles of expectations. From others, from society. Just you and me now

Faz.

We’ve learnt so much. Seen so much. Felt so much.

I understand wholeheartedly why things happened and happening the way they did and are. All

required steps to get us to where we deserve to be. If we don’t learn, well never reach there. Change.

Constant transformation. Within.

I had to be broken. And the more I broke, shattered in to tiny pieces, the easier it is for the past to be

removed from my life. That’s why bigger, heavier pieces take time to break down. Because they take

time. It’s painful to revisit old blocks, but necessary to break and rebuild so that we know not to pick up

the same pieces that aren’t solid. If we do not change our pieces when we rebuild, it will crumble down,

again.

Negative patterns are weaker blocks, they’re frail, empty, shallow. They bring nothing but a temporary

fix. And that’s not what we want.

Isolation. Isolation allows us to dig deep into our own mine. Clear out and bring in new source of light.

An unchartered path. A path to home. Uninterrupted. No noise, no secondary opinions but our own. No

doubt nor judgment.

It is because I was broken that I could rebuild.

It is because I was isolated that I could rediscover.

It is because I had fear I could grow courage.

It is because I was rejected I could look within.

And it is when I looked within that I discovered the biggest realization.

That I am enough.

I am bountiful.

I am brilliant and wise.

Others seek to me for guidance and wisdom when in darkness because I’ve been in darkness.

I’m ready now. I know my vortex of growth, transformation is wide open now. I can feel it. A calling. I’ve

changed. Yet again.

This space in this next chapter is calmer. A quiet confidence. A loud roar in the stillness of air. I’ve

unleashed a new part of me from this trip. A power like I’ve never felt before. The sense of release.

Releasing everything that was holding me back from my next phase. An up level.

I claim my shadow. For she carried me through my dark. It is her element and now I know when I am in

darkness, I release my control and let my shadow-self guide us through it.

I have grief in me. This place, it reconnects me. And even though I know I carry me, in me, this is a space

that we have space together. Quality time. Already feeling sad to leave. But we’ll be back. We found

home in this land.

New realisations/observations in changes of behaviour:

• Over the last few months, I’ve had moments where I did not understand why I was drawn to certain situations but went with it. I know now how much my trust in divine order, and how everything happens for a reason is key to my success to my growth. So even if it doesn’t makes sense, I still do it. I release the need to understand and embrace trusting the process. I believe I can step into unknown, uncomfortable situations because I’m stronger. I can handle myself and trust that I can pull myself out of any harmful situations (physically or mentally).

• I’m attracting more abundance. With ease, with flow. In my thoughts, in the people I attract.

• More people are referring to me as Positive, less Strong – as how I used to be referred as. This is

  external validation to my growth. My healing journey has now moved, transitioned from

  surviving to living optimally – to my fuller self.

• I have a sense of purpose. A greater knowledge, an ancient wisdom in me that I can now tap

  into. This is new. I need to learn to accept, embrace and make full use of this. A gift from the

  divine. I know this to be true. With this gift comes great responsibility in ushering the new light.

  Within myself and to others.

• My beauty. It’s changed. Everything inside of me is transforming, shaping my external

  appearance. No longer bound to the external societal beauty standards that once plagued me. I

  love my body and how it feels and look. No longer having the need to conform, but all

  acceptance and embracing this new form. My vessel. One that’s been loyal to me my whole life.

  I am beautiful. I am the epitome of beauty. Because I exercise my mind, heart regularly and my

  body follows.

• I have less fear. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I can be alone, in a vulnerable space and

  feel safe. I know it is because of the trust in the divine for He is and always watching, guiding

  and protective me. I know this to be true because I’ve seen it time and time again. Mentally, I do

  not have the need to be right, to understand, not to make sense. I no longer have the need to

  be fearful of scrutiny. Fear of judgment, fear of losing control, or being wrong. I know this to be

  true because everything that happened was so that I can gain the knowledge and wisdom

  behind all those experiences. And without them, I would not be here. In my new mental

  headspace.

• I am aligned. My soul, my mind, my body operate as One. No longer in conflict with one

  another. I feel, think and move as One. With purpose.

• I move less, speak less, but make great strides when I do. They are with thought, purpose and

  graceful execution. Only needing to do what needs, not without.

• I remove myself from my reigns and permit myself to rest. For this was always been my secret

  weapon. Life is complex and change is mystical. No one truly understand how they occur. What I

  have come to accept is that we Are unique. I’ve stopped comparing myself a long time ago when

  I was broken – too focused on rebuilding myself. But now I know this is necessary to honor

  myself.

• Love. I’ve been attracting a new era of love into my life. Strangers, nature, an unworldly

  existence – my guides, whoever, whatever that’s been guiding, protecting me myth entire

  journey in life. I feel the love pouring, like sun rays beaming over me. Love surrounds me,

  because I walk with it.

• I step into my next phase now. It welcomes me. I am limitless. No longer bound by the shackles

  that once be. No longer needing to explain, mask, no longer confirming, I am Me. I am alive. I

  am Free.

• Every lesson learned, painful acceptances, confusion, lost, regret, cries, physical heart aches

  gave me something new each time. A jewel. The jewel of gratitude. One with humility, honor. A

  wholesome experience that I take a great deal to appreciate. My jewels are what my internal

  state of being is made of. Some old blocks that remain with grace to remind me of my past and

  keep my grounded. Adorned with new jewels of life lessons. My rewards – these are what brings

  in light to my inner self- my Home. Its strong, study, light and colorful.

Time to go now.

You protected us, parted the skies and brought us the sun.

We’ve learned so much. You gave us plenty. Were connected now.

The hard stuff is over now, Faz.

Things get easier from now.